As you may guess by the title of this post I haven’t given up, in fact quite the contrary, I am probably in over my head. If one coaching program doesn’t get you where you need to be, do another, and while you are doing that 3 plus nights a week, take on a couple of more projects. If you think it sounds like I am having second thoughts, your right. Oh, did I mention that I work 50 hours a week at my full time gig? At my desk at 6Am EST until 6PM EST, I usually take an hour for lunch.

Why another coaching program after the last one didn’t quite live up to expectations? Because I believe I need a mentor to show me the way, a guide through the ‘Cyber Jungle’, and since I believe this is the fastest way for me to be successful, than for me, its’ true. I think that for many of us , especially those that did not grow up in our parents basement, glued to a computer screen, the intricate workings of the internet is, and always will be one of life’s great mysteries .  So, I need a mentor, maybe you do as well.

As of December 3^rd, 2009 I became Howie Swartz’s Apprentice. I joined ‘Howie’s Apprentice 5’ program to be schooled in the discipline of internet marketing. This program costs me twice as much as my previous program with Alex Jeffries called ‘Marketing with Alex’ , but I believe it covers much more. When I compare the two curriculums, Howie’s Apprentice 5 program wins hands down and should well out perform the dollar differences between the two courses.  Marketing with Alex was one night a week for 7 weeks, Howie’s Apprentice 5 program is 3 nights a week for 10 weeks. Howie’s obvious investment in course development and content alone make it an absolute bargain compared to Marketing with Alex.  Howie also has a staff of internet marketing experts, each an industry leader in their own niche to teach me the how and the why. I am excited to be in a position to be able to take advantage of this training and I have high expectations for the future.

I had a two year window to get established in my internet marketing business and half of that is gone and right now I am making a measly $800.00 a month and putting that right back into my business. Not much of a living, right? Where in the world could I go and support my family in the style they have become accustomed to, on $800.00 a month, any ideas?

As you can see by my writing, I am violating the first rule of successful blogging, I am writing from my heart and mind with complete and utter disregard for keyword insertion. This means that few people will find their way to my blog and read my stories. Since this blog has yet to be monetized and may never be, it really doesn’t matter to me. What does matter you ask. If you are reading this, you are probably on the same journey as I am, searching for the same things that I am, if this blog serves as your guide or it serves as your example of what not to do, is a story that remains to be told. I am doing my utmost best to make this blog your blueprint for a wildly successful internet marketing business of your own.

I am and will continue to be, painfully honest in this blog and document my struggle. I am planning to be posting to this blog multiple times a week, short posts due to the all too obvious  time constraints, but they will truly document what I am doing to put myself in a position of financial independence.

I know this will be an epic struggle for me, but in my mind, its’ crunch time. For the past year I have closed my emails with a quote attributed to an Israeli sage from long ago, it was as true then as it is today.

“If not you, Who? If not now, When?” .. Hillel